Pain Body Attack

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Pain Body Attack

Postby octavo360 » Mon Oct 20, 2014 12:10 pm

I am going through the craziest experience in my life right now. I first read the power of now about 2 years ago and then A New Earth not long after. I instantly connected with the teachings in these books and have been practicing the techniques for living in the now ever since. Recently conscious living has started to change my life. About 2 weeks ago, I stopped smoking and I stopped watching porn, both of which had been something I had done every night. I've had a few rough nights but focussing on the now rather than attributing my feeling to external situations has helped me to off them. In fact, I feel like I don;t have much control over the fact I no longer do those things.

Last night I went to bed at around midnight. I often toss and turn for a while, and I used to get lost in thought thinking about my life situations. Now I accept that sometimes I can't sleep straight away and instead put all of my attention inside my body, focussing on the various sensations as they ebb and flow. As I started to drift off, I felt a sudden very strong and extremely unpleasant energy enter my body. My sense of balance was completely thrown off - I was lying down on the bed but felt like I was sitting upright, when I put my attention on this sensation is suddenly flipped so it now felt I was upside down. Accompanying this feeling and the energy was an image of a mans face - a very ugly, evil looking man with small narrow eyes, and I had the feeling that this man wanted to hurt me badly. I did not run, I kept my attention focussed on the feelings. The energy had three bursts, getting stronger each time. The sensation of my balance felt like I was spinning and flipping as though I was being thrown around. I didn't panic but kept my attention on the energy. Eventually it died away and for a good while afterwards I felt a strong positive energy, like the kind of feeling you get in your body when you hear an amazing piece of music, it's almost like a wave that passes through you. This continued in pulses for a while. Eventually, I fell asleep.

This morning I woke up and walked to work. I noticed on the road next to the path that I walk along several police cars, about 60 seconds away from my house. I thought it was odd as I live in a nice area but didn't take too much notice. When I arrived at work today one of my colleagues posted a link to a tweet in the chat window we share. He cycles the same route as me and as such he leaves a little later. It turned out, 5 minutes after I had walked past those police cars, the entire area had been cordoned off, so he couldn't get through. I don't know what happened for sure but early reports are indicated a car plowed into the river at some point during the night. I'm fucking terrified that my pain body 'release' left me and took control of someone driving near by. I feel like I'm going crazy here. I believed all of what Eckhart said but I wasn't entirely convinced by the idea of the pain body, now I feel scared and like this entity knows that I know it actually is real and is going to try and hurt me somehow. I'm trying not to think about it and just stay present with the fearful feelings im having but it's tough. I'll keep you updated on what I find out about the incident.
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Re: Pain Body Attack

Postby Filander » Mon Oct 20, 2014 4:21 pm

Hello there octavo.

I would invite you to take a step back and coolheadedly examine the half-formed stories currently erupting out of your creative imagination. Very dramatic, with supernatural connotations, and most importantly, incriminating. Do you really suspect you have committed an act of criminal negligence with telekinesis?

I am guessing you kind of do, but what would happen if you tried telling the police that? How about the psychologists they would pass you on to? Note that the stories are justified enough to generate lots of drama and anxiety but exposed as ridiculous the moment you consider actually testing them against reality.

You have experienced a very powerful and troubling synchronicity. Welcome to the club. These events have a tendency to strike with impeccable timing, precisely when you are off guard or in an already volatile state. Check out Jung's theory if you are not familiar with it, he researched the subject a lot but couldn't present his findings as hard science. Some phenomena are just not amenable to scientific testing.

I would guess, something important is going on for you alright. The synchronicity has had the effect of retrospectively coloring the experience preceding it, maybe something is being obscured?

Within the constraints of a hard ego, we become accustomed to a rather bland, predictably consistent quality of consciousness. Some of the states we experience as we work with the pain body can be shockingly weird. I have had encounters with "entities" and "auras" and alarming physical symptoms, it is possible to learn to accept such things over time.

So I say, consider this progress, of a sort. Maybe slow down for now, find a comfort zone to chill out in for a while. Next time "something weird" happens, there will be less self-referential drama and more potential for recovery. No one said working with the pain-body would be easy, it didn't get that name by being cute and fluffy.
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Re: Pain Body Attack

Postby masterofearth » Mon Nov 10, 2014 11:15 pm

You are simply going through withdrawal from masterbation. This is nothing easy. It takes dedicated time and effort to abstain from sexual practices. The intensity varies; from the frequency at which you masterbated. The higher, the more severe the withdrawals will be. You are simply suffering from slight anxiety which is bringing in thoughts of paranoia. Remember, your thoughts are not real. Your body is undergoing a major shift in frequency and is raising in vibration. Different faculties of your mind are being activated and it's just not something your body is used to. So it struggles to keep up with the information overload. Give it time. You might experience a different variety of symptoms. Restlesness, insomnia, and extreme sexual desire to masterbate. It's only your mind playing tricks on you . ;) Your neuro system is wired for you to keep up with your habits and is not used to the discomfort without these physical desires. Wether you masterbate to cope with stress or for a after glow of well-being. Your body is now experiencing new perspectives and you are getting accustomed.
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