Suddenly it is less about need, rather: "How do I Consciously choose to interact and present Myself to this Person.
That's a good point. With all this being in the present, I'm often conflicted on how I can best present myself in any given situation. For myself, the evolution of consciousness is always at the back of my mind and influences everything I do. So every situation has become an opportunity for growth, either mine, theirs or both. Most of what I do and say has become deliberate. You might say, I have a hidden agenda, but it's only hidden until the other person becomes aware of what I'm doing. If their awareness has become into alignment with my own, I'm overjoyed, as this rarely ever happens.
I don't come to this forum as often as I'd like, but this sort of forum allows me to interact with people of my own level of awareness, which I rarely find in the real world. It's nice to be able to freely express my ideas here with people that understand.
In the real world, while I do enjoy the company of fiends and colleagues, I often feel a sense of loneliness, as 95% of the conversation is repetitive, trivial nonsense. And the limited opportunities I do have to really connect on a deeper level never really seems to make that much of a difference.
I still struggle with two ideas. When I check my motivations I come up with two drivers. One that is quite content to not do anything at all and just allow everything to be as it is, no judgement, no desire to influence anything at all, to sit in silence and simply be. And the other, to actively participate, try and help people out and make a difference, which can come in all manner of influential forcefulness.
Simply being isn't as easy at it might sound.