I was telling a friend who's also a fan of Tolle about some of the changes I've noticed, and I realized that the "Personal Experiences" forum may be a good place to post them. Here are some observations regarding the past week:
- Over the past few years I've practiced meditation, progressive relaxation, or self-hypnosis a couple times a month, on average. However, in the past week I've been meditating at least once a day. It used to be difficult for me to meditate without the use of self-hypnosis CDs or SHARM, but now that I understand that I only have to observe my thoughts, feel my inner energy field, and focus on my breathing, meditation has become something that I just naturally feel compelled to do, similar to eating when you're hungry or sleeping when you're tired.
- I've noticed that I tend to have much less of a tolerance for sitting in front of the computer for long periods of time. I start feeling... unease... and I have to hop on the treadmill, meditate, run an errand, or do something. Maybe the level of unease in such situations hasn't changed, but my tolerance for it has?
- It's sort of cool because procrastination is a thing of the past. If I realize there's something that I need to do, I either do it right away or don't do it right away. If I don't do it right away, I don't dwell on it either. I'm finding myself spontaneously and effortlessly doing things that in the past I would have put off for days (or longer), feeling miserable about it the whole time. It's very liberating. Thinking about all of the unfinished stuff you have to deal with at some point is VERY draining, after all. I'm also suddenly realizing at just the right time when there's something I need to do.
- I've practiced yoga a handful of times in the past, but the last time I tried I ended up hurting myself. For the past few days I've felt compelled to do it though (either that or something like tai chi), similar to how I feel about meditating. I suppose it is a form of meditation, after all. I was just looking at the booklet that comes with my Kripalu Yoga program, and there's a section in there that's pretty much a summary of The Power of Now.
- Now that I'm resisting a lot less in my life, one area of resistance that's become glaringly apparent is my resentment towards my job and my boss. I'm going to observe my thoughts and feelings on this for a while and see what happens. I really think that my resentment in this area was a direct cause (at least one of them) of an auto accident that I was in a little over a year ago and the subsequent slow healing process. (Not to mention that this has greatly restricted my flow of income as well, obviously.)
- It's interesting that my diet has sort of balanced itself out. I've been overeating and gaining weight for the past two or three years, but in the past week I've lost 10 lbs. Part of the reason for this is the fact that I now feel more compelled to be active. I think I use walking/running on the tread mill as a form of meditation sometimes, and sometimes I listen to audio books while I'm on it. Another part of the reason is because being more present allows me to understand what my body actually needs (and doesn't need) and prevents me from overeating.
- I've noticed that when I feel my inner energy field the most, people respond to me differently. The most interesting example is something a random stranger said to me outside the post office. She said "you look young". She had a curious look on her face like she wasn't quite sure what she was seeing, and "young" was the closest term to it that she could think of.