Hey! That is exactly what comes to my mind too when I think "surrender". Maybe that's
why it comes so easy for me
Anyway, if "acceptance" works better for you then that is cool, but I wouldn't put too much stock into your thoughts or memories or whatever happens to come to mind at any given moment.
I don't know about yours, but my head is completely freakin nuts. It will think of the most random things for no particular reason. And it gets off in some really weird, twisted, and sick ways. For example, I remember being at a bar in Portugal a couple years ago and I met this really cute girl who was telling me this story and then she told me about how she just broke up with her boyfriend. And then she started crying and I actually started to get aroused! I was sitting there watching my thoughts and I heard another voice say "what kind of sick bastard are you?" But I know those crazy thoughts are not really me, they just come from some silly ego who knows he's already seen his prime and is on the way out. In the end, every ego is sick and insane and (fortunately for us) dying, so there's not much point in taking it very seriously.
I thought I'd share that with you guys just in case you were starting to think I was cool