(I just want to take a moment to thank everyone for a great discussion here. And of course, please continue to post !)
Here's where I'm at, in my life. And, if you'll allow a little digging into my past, I hope to convey why I feel the way I do about LoA, and if nothing else, convince you that I'm not just knocking down your beliefs in some futile attempt to prove I'm right (of course, no one is "right").
All my life, all I ever wanted was genuine human connection. I walked into every human interaction with no agendas, no lines, no rehearsals ... just an openness and an optimism that human connection is possible. Every single time I showed the innocence and niceness deep within me, I got bent over and sodomized in every way possible, by everyone in sight. For every bit of nice energy that flowed out of me, I got brutalized a thousandfold in return.
So, do I think that niceness attracts niceness ? No. Should I ? I'll let you figure that one out.
I'm basically at a point in my life where I couldn't care less about theory and beliefs and formulas and recipes ... they don't impress me except for their potential entertainment value. Show me that something has actually worked for you or someone else, and then, I might consider that there is truth to it. Truth, to me, now, lies in how something actually manifests in the real world, rather than as an idea written in a book by some guy with a PhD. The truth is meant to be lived/realized/experienced, not just thought up
. You can tell me all day long, till you're blue in the face, that 2 + 2 = 4. But, if all my life, 2 + 2 has actually added up to 5, then I couldn't care less about how you derived your equation, because truth = experience
Hope I made some sense. Now, if the LoA has proven true for you in your life, great. It hasn't for me, so there is no convincing possible, either way. You have your experience and I have mine.
One last comment - about divine purpose. I have to, once again, shake my head in disagreement. If you've made a career out of fucking other people over and have earned billions and own 10 homes and all the news channels pay tribute to you when you die, that don't impress me one bit ... it don't mean a damn thing. And, by contrast, if you've lived your whole life in presence, sitting alone under a tree, and died alone ... well, that don't impress me much either. I guess what I'm saying is ... whether its divine or unconscious or selfless or selfish, what the fuck difference does any of it make ? So you "realized your true self" ... whoopee fuckin do ! Who cares ! There is no "purpose". I think we're all put here for a little while. It's partly up to us how things turn out, mostly up to the world - things we can't control. Do the best you can and fuck the rest. Some people have it better than others. For some people, that stay is too short; for others, far too long. For some, a vacation; for others, a prison.
It doesn't matter what "divine" state of consciousness you (think you) reached, any more than how much money you made or how much sex you had. Neither way of life means much in the end. There is, potentially, a lot of fun to be had here, and also a lot of pain and suffering. But, ultimately, a saint is no better or nobler than a sinner
No purpose ... just experience.