Thanks, I found this 'potentially' helpful, as I can again see the logic in this, but have difficulty seeing how i can 'observe' thoughts that give me immense amounts of fear, as soon as i 'observe' them, i get sucked into them, and become them/identify with them, which energizes the emotion....and so on.
Any ideas on how not to get sucked into the thoughts whilst observing them?
There's lots of good advice in this thread and yougarksooo's suggestion that you, "Don't even label it as "fear" or "pain" is a very good place to start.
These are emotionally charged terms for what's really no more than a trapped pocket of energy vibrating at a certain frequency.
But does it matter what you call it? Surely, fear is fear, whatever name you choose to call it by?
Well, not quite.
In fact, 99% of fear is a MASSIVE confidence trick.
I know this because, like ET, my own pain-body was mostly composed of debilitating fear.
And what I was afraid of was the thoughts themselves
, which seemed to me to be veritable demons with an incredible power to inflict pain and fear.
It took a while to realize that I myself was giving them that power by collapsing into a state of gibbering terror whenever they put in an appearance.
In reality, even the most powerful of these thought-complexes proved to be no more than an empty phantasm when I was able to observe it dispassionately while remaining calm and focused.
This was equally true whether the complex was centred around a wholly irrational fear or based on the anticipation of some future event or circumstance that might really have occurred in my life.
Every experience of de-energizing these complexes by calm observation proved the truth of President Roosevelt's wise remark that: "we have nothing to fear but fear itself".
And fear is nothing more than energy vibrating at a certain frequency. All the rest is fantasy added by the mind.
How then, to observe these complexes without adding the fantasy and getting sucked into a stream of negative thoughts?
Like you, I found this very difficult until I began to concentrate not on any particular thoughts, but instead focused my awareness on the sensations that the thought-complex generated in my physical body
Every powerful thought-complex generates tangible feelings in the physical body. When it arises, if you move your awareness into your body, you'll become conscious of certain unmistakeable sensations.
It may be that you'll feel palpitations in your chest or stomach.
Or perhaps it will manifest as heat in a particular part of your body.
Observe the sensation calmly and without running a mental commentary on what you're experiencing (which is merely employing the mind to think about the sensation). The idea here is to observe from the perspective of pure awareness - a state which precedes the arising of conditoned thought.
When you can manage this for a while, you'll find that the intensity of the sensations will diminish and with them the compulsion to engage in an orgy of negative fantasizing.
There are two important side-effects of this practise.
Firstly, it will train you in the invaluable skill of concentration (not in the sense of straining to concentrate on anything, but in the sense of accustoming your wayward mind to repeatedly return to a particular sensation).
This skill is of great value when it comes to de-enegizing thought-forms.
Secondly, and even more importantly, the very act of practising this concentration will slow your mind down considerably.
You will create space around your thoughts.
That means it will become much easier to identify the moment when a problematic thought-complex arises and take appropriate action before getting tricked into feeding it with a torrent of negative thoughts.
Sure, it takes practice, but nothing is more important when it comes to ending cruel and wholly unnecessary suffering (unnecessary, because it's ultimately self-inflicted).
There's a knack to it - like riding a bicycle.
Once you've learned it, you don't forget.
At first you can practice deliberately invoking the thought-complex by sitting calmly and thinking of a common trigger (being careful to immediately switch to the observation of your bodily sensations and not to continue with the line of thought).
That way you have time to prepare yourself.
And remember that these thought-complexes are not your enemies.
They're just energy-forms that you yourself created in the past obeying the laws of their own nature.
I once thought them a curse.
Now I know that they can be a great blessing.
They forced me to wake up and find a way beyond suffering to a peace that I never imagined was possible for me.
They also made sure I stayed conscious and didn't get complacent.
Because they return again and again - often when you're least expecting them.
But that, as I said, is ultimately a blessing because as ET says, it's often those who suffer the most pain who dissolve their pain-body the fastest.
Now, the very thought-complexes that used to terrify me on a regular basis have almost no power left at all. I see them coming a mile off and laugh to myself. Then they vanish again, mere shadows of the terrible demons that they once were, or seemed to me.
Acquiring this skill is the most worthwhile thing I've ever done.
I believe that you'll feel the same when you begin to experience successs, as I'm sure you will.