If you are still around, enjoy your journey.
Here are a few thoughts you may (or may not) want to take with you. This excerpt below seems apropos, and a good reminder for me as well; and perhaps others here who may at times lose sight of the pointers by getting lost in thinking too much about the words and concepts they hear.
Eckhart is not asking anyone to believe him or to make a new religion out what he says, that is missing the point. He is offering tools that help discover what is true for oneself. But to do so one must be open to this discovery of truth. In other words one neither believes nor disbelieves what they read or hear. It may resonate or it may not, either way it is fine, but let the truth be revealed from within. One is always free to explore whatever version of truth that resonates or speaks directly to them, although all teachings are at best relative approximations of reality. One is also free to ignore truth, which most will do until ignoring truth is no longer fun. And that's ok too, it's neither bad nor good, it's just the way it happens, although there may be consequences to ignoring truth, which is all part of the learning process.
You may find that inner stillness is a universal language that transcends all traditions, and is the portal to experience directly what is absolutely true. This inner stillness is always present even when there is noise or thinking, but we usually don't recognize it. All that is required is a sincere willingness or interest in truth. Perhaps what you are experiencing is fear of the unknown, it's a very common reaction. It may be helpful to know "Nothing real can be threatened, nothing unreal exists."
From Tolle's Stillness Speaks- Introduction
A true spiritual teacher does not have anything to teach in the conventional sense of the word, does not have anything to give or add to you, such as new information, beliefs, or rules of conduct. The only function of such a teacher is to help you remove that which separates you from the truth of who you already are and what you already know in the depth of your being. The spiritual teacher is there to uncover and reveal to you that dimension of the inner depth that is also peace.
If you come to a spiritual teacher or this book looking for stimulating ideas, theories, beliefs, intellectual discussions, then you will be disappointed. In other words, if you are looking for food for thought, you won't find it. And you will miss the very essence of the teaching, the essence of this book which is not in the words but within yourself. It is good to remember that, to feel that, as you listen. The words are no more than signposts. That to which they point is not to be found within the realm of thought but a dimension within yourself that is deeper, and infinitely vaster than thought. A vibrantly alive peace is one of the characteristics of that dimension. So whenever you feel inner peace arising as you listen, the book is doing it work and fulfilling its function as your teacher. It is reminding you of who you are and pointing the way back home.
This is not a book to be read from cover to cover and then put away. Live with it. Pick it up frequently. And, more importantly, put it down frequently. Or spend more time holding it than reading it. Many readers will feel naturally inclined to stop reading after each entry, to pause, reflect, become still. It is always more helpful and more important to stop reading than to continue reading. Allow the book to do its work, to awaken you from the old groves of your repetitive and conditioned thinking.
The form of this book can be seen as a revival for the present age of the oldest form of recorded spiritual teachings, the sutras of ancient India. Sutras are powerful pointers to the truth in the form of aphorisms or short sayings with little conceptual elaboration. The Vedas and Upanishads are the early sacred teachings recorded in the form of sutras, as are the words of the Buddha. The sayings and parables of Jesus, too, when taken out of their narrative context could be regarded as sutras as well as the profound teachings contained in the Tao Te Ching, the ancient Chinese book of wisdom. The advantage of the sutra form lies in its brevity. It does not engage the thinking mind more than is necessary. What it doesn't say, but only points to, is more important than what it says. The sutra-like character, of the writings in this book is particularly marked in chapter 1, Silence and Stillness, which contains only the briefest of entries. This chapter contains the essence of the entire book and may be all that some readers require. The other chapters are there for those who need a few more signposts.
Just like the ancient sutras, the writings contained within this book are sacred and have come out of a state of consciousness we may call stillness. Unlike those sutras, however, they don't belong to any one religion or spiritual tradition, but are immediately accessible to the whole of humanity. There is also an added sense of urgency here. The transformation of human consciousness is no longer a luxury, so to speak, available only to a few, isolated individuals, but a necessity if human kind is not to destroy itself. At the present time, the dysfunction of the old consciousness and the arising of the new are both accelerating. Paradoxically, things are getting worse and better at the same time, although the worse is more apparent because it makes so much noise.
This book, of course, uses words that in the act of reading or listening, become thoughts in your mind. But those are not ordinary thoughts: repetitive, noisy, selfserving, clamoring for attention. Just like every true spiritual teachers, just like the ancient sutras, the thoughts within this book don't say “look at me", but “look beyond me.” Because the thoughts came out of stillness, they have power, the power to take you back into the same stillness from which they arose. That stillness is also inner peace. And that stillness and peace is the essence of your being. It is the stillness that will save and transform the world.