
I've been delving heavily into ET's works for a few months now and am somewhat addicted... dare I say even somewhat dependant. I try to remember his words to the effect of 'know when to stop reading' or 'know when to stop looking at the sign posts'. But as I am not a fast learner, I need a lot of reiteration to really 'get' things if especially ET's inspiring/spiritual philosophies. I've been borderline suicidal for years now and had the worst bottoming' out about 4 months ago, that one really scared me - I was 'in the zone' and a bad one it was. Even now I reserve the thought of 'if it gets too bad, I'm leaving'. Somehow now I've accepted that, I find it strangely comforting... a death of a kind? ... an acceptance that ET' might approve of? Not sure.
My basic/predominant issues in order would probably be:
1. Financial lack of success/scraping by. Was made redundant after 7 years at co. now falling back on physically laborious work/not handling well at my age (54). Body aches/pains/up at 4am for 6am start/not 'good' money.
2. Recurring issue at workplace(s) with disgust/distaste/angry feelings towards un-compassionate/unconscious/pain body laden/bad mannered/insensitive/self-absorbed/poor people skilled superiors. There is *always* someone or some people I can't stand at work. I'm learning that my ego and pain body have much to do with this so more control has been effected, thankfully. Why does there have to be sooo many unconscious/pain body laden people out there

3. Near constant fight with depression (self-talk/utilising ET's & followers philosophies has been extremely helpful). Suicidal thoughts raise and lower depending on levels of depression, anger, hopeless feelings/unconsciousness/P Body.
4. Ex wife constantly wanting (even) more $$$ from me despite her being many, many times more successful/stable career/great salary/material wealth... *entirely unconcerned* by comparison of my dismal looking future.
(she is extremely unconscious/heavy pain body/hard to deal with - though I have done well to improve comms).
Anyways, any/all advice and suggestions as to what I can look at/read/listen to/watch etc will be gratefully received. I've done a lot of 'patchwork' regarding the above so am really hoping this venue will help me to better 'home in' on what I need to do. I'n short, I'm looking for what I need... the needles in the haystack. I'm having trouble finding more on 'dealing with difficult people/persons'. There seems to be only (?) one real video by ET that comes close to what I'm looking for on the matter. Would *really* like to improve on this & the 'dealing with difficult people at work' recurring issue(s).
My knowledge of ET's work so far (only) includes having read 'The Power Of Now' and of course, many/most of his videos.
Many (many) thanks for taking the time to read my intro' !
Guy.
