Goodbye ... or something like it

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Re: Goodbye ... or something like it

Postby painBody » Thu Aug 24, 2017 3:33 am

kiki wrote:Good luck, painBody.


Thanks, kiki !
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Re: Goodbye ... or something like it

Postby painBody » Thu Aug 24, 2017 3:36 am

Onceler wrote:May all things work out as they are supposed to, brother!


Thanks, my brother from another mother :D

Take care of yourself.
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Re: Goodbye ... or something like it

Postby painBody » Thu Aug 24, 2017 3:39 am

So ... I made it into Portland. Sitting at a Starbucks just now. One thing about Portland ... a Starbucks every other block ... no shortage of free Wi-Fi :D

Feels good to be here ... for now. It's going to be hotter here than California, the next few days, if that's even possible ... that's good for bums !
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Re: Goodbye ... or something like it

Postby rachMiel » Thu Aug 24, 2017 3:45 am

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Merrily, merrily, merrily, merrily ...
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Re: Goodbye ... or something like it

Postby painBody » Thu Aug 24, 2017 3:50 am

rachMiel - You've probably heard (or heard of) the song "On the run" by Pink Floyd. They made it in '73 almost entirely with a tiny suitcase-sized synthesizer with a handful of knobs on it. It intrigued me like no other song, when I was a kid ... all the cool sound effects. It sounded so different from all their other work ... I wore out the cassette tape !

Anyway, you probably know that recreating that song is something a lot of enthusiasts/musicians try their hand at. Though 44 years old, it is still, to this day, a kind of benchmark in synthesis.

A few years ago, I recreated the main rhythm, using a square wave, with the 8 notes that form the repeating loop (and this song is so well known that the notes are listed on Wikipedia :lol:), a tempo of 165, and by modulating the LFO and Filter cutoff/resonance. It came out sounding pretty darn close to the original, although of course, I only recreated the main rhythm, and a couple of the effects. Didn't recreate the plane crash or the horse gallops.

If you ever find yourself bored, and assuming you haven't already thought of recreating this song, it could be a very interesting project for you :)
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Re: Goodbye ... or something like it

Postby dijmart » Thu Aug 24, 2017 3:56 am

Glad you made it there in one piece! Free WiFi is always good! :)

Do you know who Neale Donald Walsch is? He's the author of the "conversations with god" series of books. Anyways, he was homeless in Ashland, Oregon prior/during "receiving" the download of the first book.

In ashland, there is/was a camp ground that let homeless people use a tent (like a tent city), if they could scrounge the $25 a week fee. This is where Neale stayed while homeless. I believe he collected cans for $ to make his weekly rent.
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Re: Goodbye ... or something like it

Postby painBody » Thu Aug 24, 2017 4:04 am

dijmart wrote:Glad you made it there in one piece! Free WiFi is always good! :)

Do you know who Neale Donald Walsch is? He's the author of the "conversations with god" series of books. Anyways, he was homeless in Ashland, Oregon prior/during "receiving" the download of the first book.

In ashland, there is/was a camp ground that let homeless people use a tent (like a tent city), if they could scrounge the $25 a week fee. This is where Neale stayed while homeless. I believe he collected cans for $ to make his weekly rent.


Hey you !

No, haven't heard of Walsch. Homeless during receiving the download ? Hmm ... didn't understand what you meant by that. But, he sounds like an interesting character. I should look him up. And, thanks for the tent/cans tip !

How are you doing ?
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Re: Goodbye ... or something like it

Postby dijmart » Thu Aug 24, 2017 4:43 am

Howdy,

Homeless during receiving the download ? Hmm ... didn't understand what you meant by that. But, he sounds like an interesting character. I should look him up.


He is interesting. They made a movie out of how he became homeless and wrote his first book. Anyways, the books are "channeled" (that's what I meant by download) he asks "God" questions and gets incredible answers. Even if you don't believe in that sorta thing the books were amazing reads from what I remember. Certainly entertaining.

And, thanks for the tent/cans tip !


I'm trying to add whatever tips come to mind, perhaps they'll help you or someone who reads this one day.
Here's another tip. If you have a bag to carry a few things keep a news paper in it. Why? If it gets cold you ball up individual sheets of news paper and fill your shirt/jacket with them. Its instant insulation.


How are you doing ?


I'm ok, thanks for asking.

Did you find the homeless shelter?
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Re: Goodbye ... or something like it

Postby meetjoeblack » Fri Aug 25, 2017 4:48 am

thanks for sharing pain. I appreciate the chats and the advice over the years I have been on this board. I am hopeful that I can add the sort of value you have did with your time here. WIFI is free in starbucks and in several places. I hope you take full advantage to share your journey whenever possible. Your drive has inspired me to make some changes in my own life.
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Re: Goodbye ... or something like it

Postby steve Davidson » Fri Aug 25, 2017 8:05 pm

Nice to see everyone so supportive of you PB, especially Dijmart, who is a very good and caring friend, with a lot of good practical suggestions. It is something you have to go through, you have chosen this experience, and it is awesome that you are sharing some of it with us. However, please stay open to other possibilities, to other ways of surviving. Being homeless is not for most of us, is not a easy path to awakening. As you shared before, recently, sleeping on the cold bathroom floor and not eating enough for the body, is not ideal, in actuality. It might sound romantic to be homeless and have no cares, but equally true it is not ideal for the body nor the mind at times, the stress of surviving.

The only thing I have not seen suggested so far in the comments is contacting your parents, who you shared before are very good people, to help you out some. I see nothing wrong in asking for help from them. I know you probably have your reasons but please consider it, they love you and care for you, and will do anything for you. I am reminded of the story in the Bible about the Prodigal Son. Even Tolle talked about things like this in his books, took quotes from Jesus and elaborated on it. Stay safe and well PB and stay open to whatever life brings you.

Luke 15:11-32English Standard Version (ESV)

The Parable of the Prodigal Son
11 And he said, “There was a man who had two sons. 12 And the younger of them said to his father, ‘Father, give me the share of property that is coming to me.’ And he divided his property between them. 13 Not many days later, the younger son gathered all he had and took a journey into a far country, and there he squandered his property in reckless living. 14 And when he had spent everything, a severe famine arose in that country, and he began to be in need. 15 So he went and hired himself out to[a] one of the citizens of that country, who sent him into his fields to feed pigs. 16 And he was longing to be fed with the pods that the pigs ate, and no one gave him anything.

17 “But when he came to himself, he said, ‘How many of my father's hired servants have more than enough bread, but I perish here with hunger! 18 I will arise and go to my father, and I will say to him, “Father, I have sinned against heaven and before you. 19 I am no longer worthy to be called your son. Treat me as one of your hired servants.”’ 20 And he arose and came to his father. But while he was still a long way off, his father saw him and felt compassion, and ran and embraced him and kissed him. 21 And the son said to him, ‘Father, I have sinned against heaven and before you. I am no longer worthy to be called your son.’[b] 22 But the father said to his servants,[c] ‘Bring quickly the best robe, and put it on him, and put a ring on his hand, and shoes on his feet. 23 And bring the fattened calf and kill it, and let us eat and celebrate. 24 For this my son was dead, and is alive again; he was lost, and is found.’ And they began to celebrate.

25 “Now his older son was in the field, and as he came and drew near to the house, he heard music and dancing. 26 And he called one of the servants and asked what these things meant. 27 And he said to him, ‘Your brother has come, and your father has killed the fattened calf, because he has received him back safe and sound.’ 28 But he was angry and refused to go in. His father came out and entreated him, 29 but he answered his father, ‘Look, these many years I have served you, and I never disobeyed your command, yet you never gave me a young goat, that I might celebrate with my friends. 30 But when this son of yours came, who has devoured your property with prostitutes, you killed the fattened calf for him!’ 31 And he said to him, ‘Son, you are always with me, and all that is mine is yours. 32 It was fitting to celebrate and be glad, for this your brother was dead, and is alive; he was lost, and is found.’”
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Re: Goodbye ... or something like it

Postby dijmart » Sat Aug 26, 2017 1:43 am

Thanks for saying that, Steve! :)

Ok, tip of the day, scope out where places are that are open 24 hrs/day for shelter during storms (train stations, airport, casinos, grocery stores/walmart, ect).
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Re: Goodbye ... or something like it

Postby painBody » Tue Aug 29, 2017 6:24 am

dijmart wrote:Did you find the homeless shelter?


Hey, no, I chose not to seek one because I don't want my stuff stolen. I slept on a school bench for a few hours, before being asked to move by a cop. I decided that that was not going to last. I hitchhiked out of Portland the following morning.

(Sent you a PM, too)
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Re: Goodbye ... or something like it

Postby painBody » Tue Aug 29, 2017 6:26 am

meetjoeblack wrote:thanks for sharing pain. I appreciate the chats and the advice over the years I have been on this board. I am hopeful that I can add the sort of value you have did with your time here. WIFI is free in starbucks and in several places. I hope you take full advantage to share your journey whenever possible. Your drive has inspired me to make some changes in my own life.


Thanks for the message, MJB ! I enjoyed talking with you about career advancement and other topics. Hope I was of some help there.

Glad to hear that I inspired you in some way. Take care.
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Re: Goodbye ... or something like it

Postby painBody » Tue Aug 29, 2017 6:48 am

Steve - Thanks, friend.

Asking for my parents' help is not straightforward in my case. I'm leaving that as a last resort.

You're absolutely right - being homeless is not easy and is not for all of us ... and I have discovered just that this past week. I'm hanging in there for now. Will have to wait and see what becomes of this.

Thanks for sharing that passage from the Bible. I will have to read it again, but I'm sure it is profound.

Thank you for the thoughtful message.
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Re: Goodbye ... or something like it

Postby painBody » Tue Aug 29, 2017 7:01 am

Ok, so, now that I have internet access (though, not a lot of energy), here's an update:

I only remained in Portland for one day/night. I decided that I'm not going to sleep in a homeless shelter, because I don't want my stuff stolen and I don't want to get stabbed in the middle of the night. I slept on a bench for a few hours before being asked to move, by a cop on patrol, at 3 am. That was it for me. The next morning, I hitchhiked to a small town up in the mountains, which is where I am now.

Upon reaching here, I was fortunate enough to meet an awesome friendly local at the gas station, who has not only let me camp with him at his (free) campsite, but has also been sharing his food/booze with me. That's where I have been for the past 5 days - 4500 ft up, in a huge wilderness. No internet access there, of course. I came back to the gas station (it's actually a travel center), where I'm now using the Wi-Fi.

I have found a lot of peace here. Warm campfires, plenty of stars in the sky, little chipmunks hopping around looking for food, little birds pecking at tree bark mining for bugs, my book (I'm reading "Madness" by Marya Hornbacher, which is about her struggle with Bipolar Disorder).

Big drama played out today. My friend (the guy I was camping with) got assaulted by an angry (piece of shit) fellow camper ... he broke into my friend's tent and punched him ... all this over a stupid little argument. Cops are now swarming the place looking for the attacker. I had to move from my campsite ... decided to come over to the travel center for a bit, to recharge my phone and computer. Will hike back there in a while, with my headlamp, and find a new campsite. I'm allowed to camp here for 14 days. Will have to see what comes next.

Hope y'all are doing fabulously.
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