Confusion, anxiety about what to do in LIFE

[Giulio Bevi]

Hi everyone. I'm 20 years old

This periods of my life are really challenging. I'm in a hard state of doubt,insecurity about what i would like to do in my life.

My mind is struggeling between some things. Some time ago i discovered a University about Antropology,Religion and Oriental Civilzation. I would do this uni only for the knowledge that offers, to know the things, to have a cultural package. At the same time i'm a drummer, i have passion for playing different struments. I'm actually signed in a private music school, it's smaller than a real conservatory.

The problem is : this Antropology university is far away from my city , i have to take 2 trains , it would take 2 hours. A lot of time would be taken away, just sitting in train. So i was worrying that i don't have much time for other things like : nature , tai chi course, practicing drums and so on. I should do good time schedule

On the other side my feeling is telling me to go directly to the conservatory, even if it feels scary , maybe my ego is afraid of this choice.

I would like to have both at the same time .

If i do the university i would finish with 23 years and then i could do the conservatory but i'm scared that at 23 y.o is too late to do it.

Is it worth to do a non practical university only for cultural knowledge ?

The feeling of the uni is colder , and of the conservatory is warmer .

I'm so shattered by all this confusion. I have only 8 months to decide. I know nobody can really help me , but writing to you is liberating .

Thank you and sorry for my english.

[SputnikSweetheart]

Hi Giulio,

I've had a lot of anxiety about life decisions at various times as well.

A person once suggested to me this tactic, which has worked for me:

1). Get a piece of paper
2) To make a decision, write the pros and cons of your two choices
3) Look at that list carefully, read it several times
4) Throw the list away
5) A few days later, do whatever your heart tells you

You see, the decisions ultimately all come from from your non-thinking, non-conceptual mind. You can stress all you want, stop sleeping, and worry every day. It will not get you one inch closer to making the right decision.

That is why, fear is useless. Ultimately it is what it is. Recognize this and, after carefully letting your mind rationalize the situation, follow whatever the non-conceptual inner self tells you.

good luck!

[aquarius123esoteric]

This is what following our inner guidance, the wise one or living God within, means to me:

All Of Life Is Flowingness

All of life is flowingness
And in this flowing
There is meaning and law.
I trust God’s great plan of life
And my own within it.
Therefore:
I cannot lose what is my own and
I need not seek what is my own,
For what belongs to me will come and
Whatever goes does not belong to me.

Only what I am has power
And everything that’s rightfully mine
Is constantly drawn to me and
Will appear at the right moment.
Knowing this, I give up
All personal struggle and ambition.
I let go and trust the inner guidance
Of my Highest Self and the Universal Forces
To show me the way and
Run my life for me.

Created by Anon.
Edited by Aquarius

From ‘Astrology On The Healing Journey’

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